Ame Damnee

Like the blade you stain...

2005-11-22T23:02:00.000-08:00

Changed the blogskin... It is a picture of a book... Which is suppose to be a diary... The background music is Helena by My Chemical Romance... Yes, Helena again... So what??? I'm promoting MY Chemical Romance... Enjoy the music...

BOOMERANG!!!!!! BANG BANG BANG!!!!!

2005-09-20T18:21:00.000-07:00

MY MUM CHANGED MY CHINESE NAME!!!!!! WHAT LORZ?! My full name was Iris Tay Sin Yee... Now... It is Tay Sin Yu... What lorz?! So dumb... My mum went to some fortune-teller.... UGH... And the 'yu' is yu le[entertainment] that 'yu'!!!!! UGH! Then my 'sin' also change the character but same pronouciation... It's a differents character now... UGH... UGH UGH UGH... Pathetic larz.... MY WHOLE CHINESE NAME LOOK SO OBIANG NOW!!!!!! THAT'S IT!!!! I'm gonna shoot anyone who calls my Chinese name or writes my Chinese name with a boomerang!!!! UGH... WHAT LORZ?! Dumb superstition... If my luck doesn't turn any good, I'm gonna shoot that fortune-teller!!!! UGH!!!! UGH UGH UGH UGH!!!!!!!!

BWAHAHA

2005-09-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

BWAHAHA... I found my username and pw... Haha... YAY!!!!

LaMeR, gEt oUtTa mY LiFe!!!!!

2005-03-15T20:33:00.000-08:00

That lame person who has been bad-mouthing me, I tell you... You are not gonna affect me... I dun even care if you won everybody's trust... I dun care even if you convince everyone that I'm a lesbian!!!!! I really dun care.... As long as I know I'm not one, you are NOT gonna affect me.... you lame FAILURE!!!!!!!!!

I dUn mInD sPeNdInG eVeRyDaY...

2005-03-09T22:24:00.000-08:00

I wanna go on a food binge now... I'm very upset now... I always go on a food binge when there are times of depression lyk now... You dun even reply my SMSes, letters and whatsoever... You are so getting on my nerve... I am very tired of this already... You're making me lose my respect towards you... I am really tired of your attitude.... I am deciding to drink cups and cups of Milo to make myself feel super bloated to prevent myself on going on a food binge... That method works okay... But I will have difficulty sleeping... Especially if I drink cups and cups of Milo before I go to bed... I have a CME presentation tomorrow!!!!! I can't have a sleepless night!!!!! Drinking a cup of coffee now... I love coffee... Maybe making another blog.... Gtg...

I WaNnA bE LyK tHiS....

2005-03-03T19:26:00.000-08:00

I am so totally freaked out!!!!!!! I got A1 for my Math common test!!!!!! Oh gosh!!!! Tell me this isn't a dream... I got 33/40 for Math!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh gosh!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't believe it!!!!!! Mr. Soh said one person failed... I was lyk totally on the verge of bursting into tears when he was slowly calling the names of the girls infront of me... I got so stressed up that I had this major headache when I saw my marks... I deliberately told my mum that I got 33... Then my mum was lyk... "Over what???" I was pretending to stutter lyk crazy... My mum panicked a lot... Then I said... "Over 40..." Then when my mum reached home, she tried to strangle me... Hahaz... I am so tired... The Chinese test used up loads of my braincells... I am so gonna fail for my Science class test... I dunno there was gonna be a Science class test... I am so dead...

sEeK wHaT I fInD... tHiS iS NOT tHe eNd...

2005-02-23T20:23:00.000-08:00

I CANNOT believe what you did what you said you did!!!!! How can you do THAT?! You are SO unbelievable!!!!!!! I dunno if I can trust you anymore... This si NOT in what I expected.... You can be my best friend and you choose to be my enemy!!!!!!!!! Fine!!!!! Go on with YOUR stupid obsessions!!!! No sense of shame in you... I am beginning to despise you A LOT.... Why dun you get it?! And you're FRIENDS with HER!!!!!!! Arhhhh!!!!!!!!! This is SO unbelievable... I NEVER expected it!!!!! You are SO shockingly dumb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dun you get it when I am having cold war with her, you are NOT supposed to be on HER side?! You are SO atrocious!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate you.... NOW....

RaWk oFf!!!!

2005-02-20T22:16:00.000-08:00

I went to Orchard to catch Racing Stripes with Shermz.... It was SO funny!!!!! I went to Heeren and took some SUPER nice neoprints with Shermz.... My favourite so far.... And we met Olinda!!!!! I got her signature!!!! It was SO totally cool!!!!!

rEmInDed aGaIn...

2005-02-12T18:28:00.000-08:00

I hate my life.... This life of pain and suffering.... I hate it... When I try to make people who are angry with me forgive me, the people who were never angry with me gets fed up and leave me!!!! When the people who are angry with forgive me, the people who were never angry with me hate me!!!! If my life is to be hated all the time, why am I here??? I hate it.... I hate my life... I want to settle this once and for all....

NoT eVeN aLiKe...

2005-01-29T23:53:00.000-08:00

My mum brought me to a house which she claims there is a super cute dog and a Nicholas Xie look-alike... There was absolutely no wrong information about the super cute dog... ROCKY IS SO SUPER CUTE!!!! Took loads of pictures of Rocky... With my handphone... Nope... My mum still has my hp... Today's exception... Haiz... So sad... But the Nicholas Xie look-alike... Err... He's not even like Nicholas Xie though he's handsome... TOTALLY different... I think I saw his picture somewhere on friendster... Lol... I dunno... Not sure... I LOVE ROCKY!!!!! Ahh... So CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE................. Hahaz... Wanna visit again!!!! ROCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

TiReD oUt bY wHaT iS hApPeNnInG...

2005-01-25T20:37:00.000-08:00

I've got a dreadful flu.... I hate flu... I'll rather have fever... Although I'll feel hotter... But it's better than have difficulty in breathing... gtg... sayounara...

JaY ChOu rAwKs!!!!

2005-01-22T01:46:00.000-08:00

Jay Chou completely rawks... His concert must have been SUPER cool!!!!! My cousin bought his newest CD... She won't even let any of us touch it... Death is to await us if we don any damage to her precious Jay Chou CD... I am so super hot... The weather recently is SO hot... lol... Humid actually... Want it to rain... I prefer raining to sunny days MOST of the time... Unless I have some programs larz... Like lining up for Energy!!!! Hahaz.... I want Energy's newest album larz!!!! Will be out somewhere in April or March.... I dunno... Energy themselves are also not too sure about it... Going to listen to Energy's songs later.... To SOME people out there, can you all just think and do what you all want???? I dun care actually.. I'm not part of this world anywaiz... YOUR world... I dun care... You all can go ahead and think that I'm a liar... Wadeva okay??? I dun care.... GO ahead... It doesn't concern me anywaiz... Scold me anything you want... I dun care... You wanna kill me, find me first... I dun care... Go ahead... Waste your time... Dun try to act so superior... I won't be RULED... You rule me??? I'll finish you off... Dun try to control me... I dun bite... But you're forcing me to bite!!!!! We shall see who dies first... I'm NOT going to be that softhearted again... Anyone who offends me shall perish or I perish!!!!! One word...K-I-L-L!!!!!!

mY hAte, mY eMoTiOnS...

2005-01-15T07:48:00.000-08:00

New blogskin... My life is a pain... An accused life... My hate is arroused... My pain is increased... My life is useless... I wanna end it... I really want to end it... Why must I live to be accused as a liar?! A backstabber, a person who puts words into other people's mouths???? Why?! It is unfair!!!!! I hate this!!! I hate it!!!!!!!!!!

mY hAtReD aRoUsEd...

2005-01-14T16:19:00.000-08:00

I am NOT a fool!!!!! I can see the real you!!!! You are so evil.... Yes, all of you!!!! I've been fooled once again... Never again!!!! I can't believe that I fell for your trap of innocence... Dun try to act saintly and innocent!!!! I know you too well to be fooled again!!! People are blinded by the 'innocence' that both of you show!!!! I hate that!!!! How low can you go????? I shall see how low can you get... I shall not tell anyone... Because ppl will think I'm lying...

sTiLL hAtEd...

2005-01-06T23:39:00.000-08:00

Haiz.... The same situation.... Dunno what to say... Probably worse... Only CLarissa (excluding the people of my ex-clique...) was talking to me.... So ignored.... Great... 私は自分自身を!!! 憎む! 私に感じをしなければなぜあなたのすべてはならなかったり従ってか。か。か。憎んだか。私はもう気遣わない... 前方に行き、私を!!! 憎みなさい! Haiz.... Tmr CCA fair... SHift is 5 to 5.30.... lol... Sayounara...

AwAy FrOm mE...

2005-01-05T22:39:00.000-08:00

Haiz.... Today was amusing as well as depressing... Haiz... Not gonna talk about it... I am so fallen... Haiz... I am so turing to me.... Dun be offended if I suddenly take a drastic attitude change at any point of the time.... Just jumping from the real me to the fake me... Getting rid of the fake me.... Dun be offended.... Byez...

iN pAiN aNd bLeEdInG...

2005-01-04T23:48:00.000-08:00

My face and head bled yesterday... Some blood dripped on the letter I was writing to Sabby... I had to rewrite everything... Knocked my head into a wall by accident... And I was scratching my face halfway when I saw red stuff on the paper... Yup, blood... Stopped after a while... So I rewrote the letter... Dun think anyone wanted anything with blood on it... Gtg, sayounara...

LoL... sO bOrInG...

2005-01-02T19:48:00.000-08:00

I am so bored... Did nothing but hmwk.... Lol... Tomorrow school start... Better finish my science fast.... Gtg... Byez...

ToUcHiNg MV...

2005-01-01T19:27:00.000-08:00

I saw the S.H.E Wo Ai Ni MV... Quite touching.... I didn't cry though... Have to finish my homework.... Arh!!!!!! lol.... Gtg, byez...

sAdDeNnInG....

2004-12-31T22:05:00.000-08:00

The people at Phuket is so pitiful.... They are starving for days while people here can still pick their food!!!!! Loads of people died this year.... Year 2004 isn't a good year if you ask me... The death rate this year is so high.... I saw 2 funerals being held at the same time on my way to my uncle's house!!!! How horrible is that?! Haiz.... I'm here feeling quite guilty cos' I keep remembering how I picked my food sometimes.... My mum even brought me to a restraunt today!!!!! People at Phuket can't find food to eat!!!! Let alone picking their food!!!!! Haiz....

a PoEm wRiTtEn bY a gUrL wIf CaNcEr...

2004-12-30T12:10:00.000-08:00

SLOW DANCE ~~ ~~Have you ever watched kids ~~ ~~On a merry-go-round? ~~ ~~Or listened to the rain ~~ ~~Slapping on the ground?~~ ~~Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight? ~~ ~~Or gazed at the sun into the fading night? ~~ ~~You better slow down. ~~ ~~Don't dance so fast. ~~ ~~Time is short. ~~ ~~The music won't last. ~~ ~~Do you run through each day ~~ ~~On the fly? ~~ ~~When you ask How are you? ~~ ~~Do you hear the reply? ~~ ~~When the day is done ~~ ~~Do you lie in your bed ~~ ~~With the next hundred chores ~~ ~~Running through your head? ~~ ~~You'd better slow down ~~ ~~Don't dance so fast. ~~ ~~Time is short. ~~ ~~The music won't last. ~~ ~~Ever told your child, ~~ ~~We'll do it tomorrow? ~~ ~~And in your haste, ~~ ~~Not see his sorrow? ~~ ~~Ever lost touch, ~~ ~~Let a good friendship die ~~ ~~Cause you never had time ~~ ~~To call and say,"hi"~~ ~~You'd better slow down. ~~ ~~Don't dance so fast.~~ ~~Time is short. ~~ ~~The music won't last. ~~ ~~When you run so fast to get somewhere ~~ ~~You miss half the fun of getting there. ~~ ~~When you worry and hurry through your day, ~~ ~~It is like an unopened gift.... ~~ ~~Thrown away. ~~ ~~Life is not a race. ~~ ~~Do take it slower ~~ ~~Hear the music ~~ ~~Before the song is over

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mY sEa oF pAiN...

2004-12-29T21:16:00.000-08:00

I saw Sylvester Sim at Causeway Point today... He walked past me and my friend after smiling at us... My friend was like... " Ahh!!! Sylvester Sim looked at me!!!" Bleh... I dun really like Sylvester... I just hate him... I saw Taufik's album on presale... Sick if I say so... Lol.. Gtg, sayounara...

Cremation n' dedication for life...

2004-12-27T20:18:00.000-08:00

Humph! Energy is now stuck in Beijing.... They couldn't make it to the charity show last night.... Haiz... Couldn't see them dance... Haiz... Their dance steps are so cool!!! So sad.... I wanted to see them!!! I dun care even it's on TV!!!!! Humph!!!!! They're planning for their next album le!!! Yay!!!!!! I can't wait!!!!!!! Gtg... Sayounara!!!

mY LoVe iS LoNg gOnE,,,

2004-12-26T15:37:00.000-08:00

I am so tired.... My Christmas was so moody.... Not really a good Christmas if you ask me... I was like shopping with my friend, her family and my sister at Orchard yesterday.... I hate walking... It's so tiring... We were supposed to stay overnight yesterday... My sister and I decided not to.... I mean.... It's weird staying over.... I just dun like to satyover.... Sick... I'm having a terrible flu.... Haiz.... Gtg...

MiSsInG aLL aLoNg...

2004-12-24T13:39:00.000-08:00

Just watched the music video of 'Broken' by Seether, featuring Amy Lee of Evanescence... That song's nice.... I dun get what the music video is trying to show.... There's no sort of subject in the whole video.... Didn't update for a while... Hahaz... My com nearly broke down... Was so worried... Will be going to a friend's house to celebrate her birthday early...(Her b'dae is 25 Dec a.k.a Christmas...) Then will be staying over... We'll go shopping in Orchard tomorrow..... Listening to Jolin Tsai's new songs now... 2 new songs only... Very nice if you ask me... Hahaz... The rest all remix version of her songs... I Weekly FINALLY feature Jolin Tsai's concert.... But they didn't feature Wilber Pan's autograph session.... ): Taufik, Daphne Khoo, Olinda, Miai(is is spelled lyk that???) went to Jolin Tsai's concert... Coolness... Jeanette Ou also went to the concert.... Didn't see them... Maybe they were at the first few rows.... Lol... I was at the 14th row.... But very far away from the stage... We were at the top of the $148 seats... Diagonally on top.... I can't believe Cyndi Wang isn't as popular as Jolin Tsai!!!! Jolin had 8000 fans at her concert...(Full house...) while Cyndi Wang only had 7000 fans!!! Lost by 1000!!! That is so NOT good... Hahaz... Although they look quite alike, Cyndi lost by so much???? Of course their talents and blah isn't far from each other's standard... But Cyndi Wang lost by 1000 fans!!!!! That's incredible!!!!! Haiz... Bought a fake dog(NOT plushie...) for my friend... $20 smth... You know, lyk those dog statue???? It's so cute!!!! There was only 1 left in the shop.... It looks so sweet!!!! Oh well... Had to draw a card for her... I drew one on 22nd of Dec for another friend... I had to draw another for this friend cos' my mum saw the card I drew for the friend born on 22 Dec... I had to keep altering everything to please my mum... Took about 45 minutes.... I established my own company!!!! punkgoth.inc... Cool??? Hahaz... punk= punk lah!!! goth= gothic.... Bringing along my skateboard and roller-skates to my friend's house... Gonna be a full-time skater today... Hahaz... My sister might be borrowing my roller-skates... So maybe I'll be a punk today... Hahaz... Gtg, sayounara!!!

CeNtEr Of mY dArK cOrE...

2004-12-21T16:19:00.000-08:00

Your dark side is centered around Pain. You feel
you want to scream and cry, want to leave this
place and run away from everything but you
can't, you are trapped inside your head and
there is no way out. All you want is a
beautiful unique mind just like you, can listen
and understand so you can full your world with
happiness and peace. You will find what you
want when you simplify your life and stop
looking to the dark side.

What is the center of your dark core?
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TrIeD tO mAkE tHe PaIn Go AwAy BuT OnLy BrOuGhT mOrE...

2004-12-20T12:02:00.000-08:00

I am so troubled... Why do I have to hide the real me for people???? I'm not going to do that anymore.... I'm going to be me.... If you dun lyk me.... That is just too bad... It is me... What can you do??? I'm not going to be the fool to hide myself again!!!!! I will not and shall not hide myself.... This is just the point that I've been hiden all along... The cheerful, playful, noisy, jumpy, crazy me is not me... It's just an illusion that everyone has been seeing... A smoke-screen that has always been there... I shall destroy that smoke-screen!!!! I will let you all see me... The real cold-blooded me.... I've always been trying to act innocent.... That is just so stupid of me.... I'm not going to hide myself anymore.... I shall destroy....

mY fEaRs...

2004-12-18T17:49:00.000-08:00

I keep hearing things when I'm alone!!!!!! It's like whispering, breathing, someone walking up behind me.... I'm going crazy!!!!!! It's as though someone's watching me!!!!! I keep having a sudden feeling that someone placed their hand on my shoulder!!!!! I keep hearing things!!!!! At night when I'm in my room, I will hear shuffling of feet... I just hear things!!!!!! I have to be crazy... It's coming again!!!! Shuffling of feet!!!! I just keep having a feeling that someone is here!!! I just heard a voice sing out of tune of the CD I'm listening to!!!!! Omg!!!! What is so wrong???? I keep having a feeling that someone is behind me!!!!! Omg!!!! I feel so stressed out!!! I must be having illusions!!!! Omg... It's just a feeling that I'm being watched!!!!!! Maybe it's due to lack of sleep.... Omg.... What to do?! Just leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WhErE wOuLd YoU gO???

2004-12-17T20:13:00.000-08:00

I made up with my mum... Haiz.... Shouldn't hate my mum... She actually cares a lot... She just spat everything out in anger.... I was sorta in the fault too... Haiz... Watched Mean Girls last night... The Cady in the show is sorta like me... I mean, commit wrong stuff that we shouldn't have done... But she was probably worse cos' the whole school hated her... But something she said made me think a lot... "When you get bitten by a snake, you'll have to suck out the poison...." That's what she did... She apologised and stuff.... And she sucked out all the poison in her life afterall... This made me wonder... I did the same right??? But was it too late???? Has the poison reached my heart and I had to die???? Just had a ride home on a taxi... $7.80... I consider it cheap for a ride home and a valuable lesson... "Call me when you reach home..." My mum said before shutting the door of the taxi.... " Why isn't your mother going home with you???" The taxi driver asked... "Err... She had something on..." I replied, afraid to speak because I dun even know him... Everything in Chinese... Hahaz... "Why are you so afraid to speak Chinese???" The driver asked... "Hardly speak Chinese???" "No... I speak Chinese but I usually speak English to my dad..." I said... "Oh I see... You know? The youngsters these days always speak English... They totally forget that they are Chinese... There was this once when a young Chinese man got into my taxi and I asked him where he wanted to go in Chinese, he asked me not to speak Chinese because he dun know what I am talking about and he hates Chinese... I asked him to get out of the taxi after I heard that..." I was totally shocked when I heard that... " I deliberately spoke in English to him... Telling him that the taxi with a Malay driving behind is probably more suitable for him to sit... He threatened to lodge a complain and I said that like I am SO scared of complains... I even asked him to go ahead and complain!!!!" I was totally impressed by how much a taxi driver would do to stand up for the Chinese.... "Wow..." I said... The taxi driver taught me many more things about Chinese on my way home.... He even told me a secret on how to improve the way I speak Chinese and English... He said that I had to talk to my reflection in a mirror... He said to look at my mouth when I do so... He said that would improve my Chinese and English oral... I said, " People these days are probably bananas...." "Bananas???" The driver repeated, confused... "Cos' their skin is yellow while their inside is white!!!!" I said, remebering what my P6 Chinese teacher told me.... "Haha... It's really a lesson to get from every different passenger I get!!!! Next time if someone insults Chinese, I'll just call them bananas!!!!" The driver said, laughing at the joke... Before I got off the taxi, the driver said " Remember to call your mother!!!! I heard it!!! Bye!!!" After that, he drove off... I know that driver was 50 years old but he actually looked as though as he was 40!!! Oh well... Talking about my dad... I miss him a lot... It's about 2 weeks or more since I last saw him... He's still on the anchorage... haiz... Do all of you even consider what might happen if you all just start a stupid rumour about me being a lesbian?! If my dad knows about the rumour, I might be sent to the rehabilation center!!!! May I ask??? Is that what you all want??? After my friend became a lesbian, my dad warned me that if I were to become a lesbian, he would just send me to the rehabilation center for 2 years straight without even visiting me once!!! Is that what you all want to happen to me?! Why dun you all consider the consequences of your actions??? You know how hurting it is???? You know I left my clique?! Why are you all so inconsiderate?! If you all dun need me in the clique, just tell me!!!! I will leave!!!! I will never have some dumb cliques if this was what cliques are meant to be....

HaTrEd... iT iS bOiLiNg InSiDe Of mE...

2004-12-16T20:14:00.000-08:00

I hate my mum!!!! Why does she always have to criticise me?! She says I'm useless, do nothing but spend money, sleeping, I'm a pig, I'm stupid, I'm lazy, I'm ugly, I'm nothing but a waste of money and oxygen in this world... If I'm so useless, why didn't she abort me in the first place?! Why dun she abandon me by the road after I was born??? Why dun she throw me down a building??? Why dun she poison me?! Why dun she just throw me to an orphanage?! Why dun she just slash my neck with a knife?! Why dun she just lock me up in the room for days and let me die of thrist and hunger?! Why dun she just knock me on the head with something very hard and let me be brain-dead?! Why dun she just tie me to something heavy and throw me down the ocean?! My mum is my worst nightmare... Why dun I be born in another family??? Why dun I leave this world??? She'll be happy if I die... She wouldn't be holding a funeral... She'll be holding a party!!!! Why dun she just stab me in the heart and let me die? I hate her... Who doea she think she is??? If she finds me so troublesome, just kill me!!! Why even bother feeding me till I'm at this age??? Why does she even bother in the first place??? I shouldn't be in this world... She wouldn't even care if I burn in hell!!!!! She's just pretending!!!! She doesn't even care!!!! She just pretending to be noble and kind.... I hate her!!! I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mY pAiN iS rEmInDeD...

2004-12-16T17:12:00.000-08:00

I've just been reminded of something.... I dun have a clique anymore.... I left my clique... I dun see the point of staying when there is not any trust left... I hate myself... I hate this life... Why am I even here??? Sitting here, staring at time as it slips away... I have no where to be... This place is a place where I'm just standing in the way of... This world is not a place for me... I just need a corner to hide at... To cry at... To be left alone... Is that too much to ask??? Why??? I should have died long ago... So long ago... I should be a pile of rotting flesh now... Instead of being here in front of the computer, regretting everything, crying to self, telling my problems to no one... Sitting here suffering mental torment and codemned to a world of my own... A world of darkness and pain... A world of tears and blood... Scarred by everything I do... I hate myself!!!!!

TrIeD tO KiLL tHe PaIn...

2004-12-16T14:51:00.000-08:00

I woke up only at 1p.m. smth... I slept at about 4.30a.m last night... I really need to change my irregular sleeping hours... Yay!!! I've got rid of the pink bedsheet!!!! I spilled something on it... My mum made me wash it up though... Quite tiring to say the truth... Unfortunately, I also spilled some on my blanket!!! My favourite blanket!!! Haiz... Maybe I'll have to use a pink blanket tonight... But it's better than a pink bedsheet!!! Hahaz... And I can survive without a blanket!!! hahaz... Yay!!!! I was watching New York Minute last night... Very nice show actually... I also watched New Police Story... It's so cool!!! I totally loved the way how the robbers commit their crime!!!! It's like so totally cool!!!! But they're a little sadistic... They make the whole robbery into a game!!! As in, they plan everything and make it into a game and it totally happens!!!! Really cool... Hahaz... I gtg... A little sleepy....

HaTrEd Is pLaNtEd In mY hEaRt...

2004-12-15T21:43:00.000-08:00

I was reading this quiz when I came across a quiz entitled " The Truth About Christians"... There's only one question in the quiz... " Do you want to know the truth???" I clicked the answer "yes"... On the results page, it wrote... " The truth about Christians is that they preach hate to people who don't fall inline with their religion... A hateful website www.godhatesamerica.com is created by Christians...." I was so shocked by the result... I went to the website and saw the headline... "godhatesamerica.com" I was really angry with those Christians... Unfortunately, so many people is mislead by the bad Christians.... Please visit that website and you'll get what I mean... I dun get why the Christians are doing this if they really love God... They're spoiling the reputation of Christians aren't they???? Free-thinkers like me, are often mislead by these so-called Christians.... Why are they doing this??? I also saw through some Christians I know... They show hatred... They show unforgiveness... They are not even showing what they learnt!!!! This is very sad isn't it??? Haiz... I'm also being grounded for satying at home all the time... I've decided already... Once I hit 18, I'm going to hang out till midnight everyday... If that's what my mum want... If my mum scolds me that time, I'll tell her... "When I kept staying at home when I was 13, you kept scolding me and even grounded me!!! Isn't this what you want?!" She's driving me crazy!!! Haiz... Of course, if my mum doesn't ground me, I wouldn't use that... Sayounara...

YoU sTiLL hAvE aLL oF mE...

2004-12-15T10:59:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I just realised that I'm a tool to be made use of... People just kick me aside when I have no more use... How pathetic can I get???? Haizz... I'm not going to made use of again... I'm not so stupid.... I'm still pretending to exist.... I'm not there already to say the truth... I really need to start doing all my homework... 19 more days... How sick.. I hate homework... Who invented homework anywaiz??? Stupid lah... I woke up at 9.05a.m.... I slept only at 1a.m. smth...(That's the earliest I can sleep in a sea of pink!!! What do you expect???? Have to go le... I'm going back to bed and trying to sleep... Sayounara!!!

bLuRrInG aNd StIrRiNg ThE tRuTh AnD tHe LiEs...

2004-12-14T16:55:00.000-08:00

I'm SO tired... I'm very bored le... Dun even know what to do... Bleh.... I'm now eating noodles by the computer... Hahaz... Quizilla quizzes are getting too boring... Bleh... I sorta look very gothic today... Dunno why... I sorta look pale... The contrast of my hair and face is like so ghostly... Hahaz... Maybe I can scare someone outta their wits today... Bleh... No mood actually... Hahaz... Gotta go....

ThE sOnG tHaT sHoWs mE....

2004-12-14T12:09:00.000-08:00

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I'vE bEeN siLeNt aLL tHeSe YeArs....

2004-12-13T13:16:00.000-08:00

Haiz... Slept late again last night... Cos' there was a concert on TV... It ended at 2.30a.m. I kept tossing on my bed last night.... (Who wouldn't in a sea of pink????) I'm SO tired.... My mum, sister and cousins went out at 8a.m.... When they came back at 12.30p.m., I was still sleeping!!!! My mum had to drag me out of bed... Haiz... Can't she for once let me sleep??? Actually, I prefer sleeping forever.... Get what I mean??? I'm gonna die soon if this continues... Die of lack of sleep... Get it??? I'll be the first ever person to die due to lack of sleep... The concert on TV was SO cool!!! There was Energy (Yipee!!!! Anything's cool with Energy!!!!), Stefanie Sun, S.H.E, Jay Chou, Fish Leong and more... Energy dances the "Wu Xie Ke Ji"!!!! They're SO cool!!!!! Jay Chou rapped a lot... He even composed a song live!!!! He said that he wanted to win the grand prize... Hahaz... He's like SO confident... Hahaz... The grand prize is a car... Forgot what the car is called... He changed a lot of "Ban Shou Ren"... As in, he added a lot of "yo" and stuff... Hahaz... Sounded quite cool and funny... Gtg.... I'm going back to sleep... I'm so tired.... I haven't seen my dad for 1 whole week and more... See how broken my family can get??? Haiz... :'( Sayounara....

ChAsEs aLL mY sAnItY aWaY....

2004-12-12T18:40:00.000-08:00

Arhhh!!! My mum is really chasing all my sanity away!!!! She changed my bedsheet, pillow cover and bolster cover and everything into PINK!!!!!! Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why pink of all colours????? It's SO crappy lah!!! I wanna kill someone lah!!!!!! Stupid lah... When we went to buy new clothes, she nearly bought me a pink top!!!! In the end, I say not nice... In the end, I got a new black top... Hahaz... I also got a purple skirt... Clothes for New Year... So early right??? I dunno, ask my mum.... Gtg....

BrOkEn InSiDe...

2004-12-11T01:39:00.000-08:00

Today is the most magical day of my life.... At least for now... I saw three singers in 1 day!!!! Cool!!!! I saw Wilber Pan, Jolin Tsai and Huang Yida!!!! I shook hands with Wilber Pan and he thanked me for going to his autograph session!!!! I almost fainted on the spot!!!! At least that was how I felt... Hahaz... I lined up for like 2 hours or so.... Counted as short actually... I even got his poster!!!! Yay!!! He sang "Kua Le Cong Bai" and "Kiss Nite"... It was SO cool!!! After that, we rushed home for dinner and went to Singapore Indoor Stadium for Jolin Tsai's concert!!! Sylvester was Jolin's special guest and he came on stage first!!! He sang 4 songs!!!! The first was "Cathrina" of David Tao, then "Shuo Yi (That's why)" a song he wrote after he fell out of love... There's still "Wo De Fan Nao (My troubles)" another song he wrote and he dedicated it to the reporters... He also sang Jay Chou's "An Jing".... Sylvester invited 2 of his friends (Alan and Jason) to play the guitar with him in the song "Wo De Fan Nao"... It was like as though it was his concert!!!! Then Jolin Tsai came on stage.... Her concert is like so cool!!! There were stuff like yoga and street dance... I was like... wow... But her costumes are like so sexy... She's becoming more and more like Britney Spears!!!! I think the only thing I hated about the concert was pink... There were like SOME pink colour... Including the lights and Jolin's costumes... The Huang Yida rawks!!!!! He changed one part of one of his songs to like so rock!!! I was like... omg... It was SO cool!!!! This is the first concert I ever went to.... (Pathetic right????) Of course excluding school concerts and blah... I got 'electrocuted' on the MRT on the way to Kallang... Dun ask me why.... The MRT was like SO crowded... Everyone stuck to everyone!!!! Then... Uhh... I think I wouldn't want to say anymore... Hahaz... Suspense... I think I need loads of time to digest all these... I'm like so over the pluto now!!! Hahaz... But after the concert was like blah... we couldn't get a taxi to Kallang MRT station... In the end, we had to take a bus to City Hall MRT station... When we reached there, we missed the last train to Jurong East!!!! (Yah... Tough luck...) In the end, we had to take an MRT to Bugis and wait at a bus-stop for my mum to fetch us!!!! We reached home at 1 a.m. smth.... Haiz... Gtg... I'm SO tired... Sayounara!!!!

HaS nO oNe ToLd YoU tHaT sHe'S nO LonGeR bReAtHiNg???

2004-12-10T20:34:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is the day I'll see Wilber Pan!!!! Cheers... Haiz... I'm like so bored... School's reopening soon... I haven't completed my homework!!! Haiz... I hate homework... Haiz... I'm SO bored!!!! My sister wanted to sneak out to Timezone but I know my mum will slaughter us if we do that... My mum is like out for so long... Fine... Freedom for me... Bleh... No one answered my question!!!!! What's that friendster stuff for???? Stupid lah... Haiz... Went to school to get books for next year today.... I feel so pressured by the looks of the books!!!! Haiz... Then there's this book called "Sold for silver"to read for Literature next year... Sick lah... Still got Macbeth.... Bleh... Dun even know who Macbeth is!!!!! The thickness of the Science textbook is like cut down by half!!!! But the practical book 2B is pink!!!!!!! I HATE pink!!!!! Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...... Stupid lah!!!! Why can't it be yellow or something?! Why must it be PINK!!!!!!!! I really hate pink!!!!! And the pictures in the Science textbook is like so gross!!!!! ( Viruses and stuff... Really gross pictures....) I think I'm gonna hate Science next year... Haiz.... Crap lah... Gtg.....

HaTrEd... Is ThAt aLL I sEe???

2004-12-09T20:41:00.000-08:00

I'm at home with my cousin and sister... Bleh... Boring... Stay by the computer daily... Haiz... I'm meeting Wilber Pan this Saturday!!!! Yay!!! Cheers... Haiz... Maybe I'll have to line up AGAIN... Haiz... Gotta start doing my homework soon... Bleh... I hate homework... Why must we have homework during the holidays?! BLEH!!!! Haiz... I hate homework!!!!( Can anyone tell me that they like homework?! They must have forgotten to take their medication!!!!) I'm SO sleepy... Woke up at 8 a.m. this morning... Haiz... Dunno why I woke up so early... Think I was thinking too much when I went to sleep... Bleh... People ask me if my life is okay... Haiz... How can I answer them??? Tell them that my life is in one big total mess due to some problems??? Tell them that I'm gonna unleash hell to school next year??? (Maybe to people who is around me... Others won't bother...) Tell them I'm gonna find a way to have my will??? Bleh... Dream on... I won't even bother telling them... (Who knows??? I might scare them to miles away!!!! Hahaz... Sounds fun...) Haiz... I lied anywaiz... Telling them that my life is FINE (Like it is....*sacarstic...) and asked them back!!! (Hahaz... Let them have a taste of their own medicine...) Another LIE... My life is so totally useless... I keep lying... Haiz... And I'm now trapped in my own trap... GREAT *sacarstic* Just end my life!!!! I hate this life!!!!

WiLL I bE dEnIeD???

2004-12-08T15:01:00.000-08:00

Guess today is going to be a peaceful day... Haiz... Dun even know what that friendster stuff is for... Just made the account cos' people keep asking me to join... It's seriously, a little lame... Hmm... A woman who can lick her elbow??? Impossible... Might be a liar... Bleh... Who knows... Probably later... Yah... She's a liar... See? The world is mostly full of liars... Like me, my world is mostly liars and lies.... Haiz... chatting to Fong Kay now... She asks me to show the real me... I'm going to do that next year and be the most hated person ever.... My world is a place that no longer exists... It's a dull and grey place... With the aura of death... No one is supposed to get close... No one... NOT a single soul... Never...

CaPtIvAtEd By My ThOuGhTs...

2004-12-07T15:33:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired... What's going on with my blog??? Haiz... I was going to school to buy the books for next year... But the bookshop wasn't open... Oh well... There were loads of people in our school canteen though... Obviously none of the seniors in our school... I dun even know any of them!!! Weird... My friend made me realised that everyone is only going bonkers after the Twinxsmilex incident... My fault??? Maybe... Probably... That might just be the biggest mistake of my life... I shall have my will... But time isn't on my side... I can't buy time either... Somehow, I'll try... PROBABLY... I'm really being mental... I'm driving everyone up the wall... I should be alone forever... That's my life isn't it??? Maybe I should always be in a corner... Minding my own business... Wondering what is with my life... Why am I here... What am I doing to my life... The place that I should be in should be a corner... A corner where no one sees me... Where I can hide... Where I should keep to... FOREVER... I'm trapped my own lies... Picturing that my life still goes on... Can anyone answer this question??? My world has stopped spinning hasn't it???

StiLL wOn'T hEaR mE...

2004-12-06T21:43:00.000-08:00

I just woke up and had dinner... My dad was home... But I dunno cos' I was sleeping... I'm SO tired... Haiz... I need to learn to wake up at the slightest sound... My aunt tried to wake me up to have dinner with my dad... I didn't even know my dad was back... I'm like SO tired... I'm trying to complete my sleeping hours... I lack loads of sleeping hours.... I need to go and sleep... Maybe you may think I'm trying to avoid reality... Think what you want... I'm just plain tired... Information overload... Too many stuff happening and blah.... Bleh... I'm going to sleep...

I cAn'T tRuSt MySeLf AnYmOrE...

2004-12-06T16:30:00.000-08:00

I'm SO confused!!!! Someone just tell me what is going to happen??? One moment I hear this, the other I hear that... Who's the liar??? Haiz... I dunno who to trust... I shouldn't trust anyone... Why is this world so full of lies??? Everyone lies... Haiz... I'm getting so sick of it... I'm sick of myself! I hate my life! Why is it like this??? I shouldn't have met them! Shouldn't have talked to them! Shouldn't have been here! I need to let go... I can't!!! Arhz!!!!!!! I'm so tired!!! I need to learn to save myself.... I have information overload... I need to rest... I can't think! Brain block... I'm becoming a zombie.... I have dark eye rings and I look hideous... I look like a ghost!!! Haiz... Sick of all this... I think I agree with the lyrics of this song... I'm falling forever... I simply love this blog... Cos' this song sounds so perfect to describe my mood... Haiz... I'm still spiritually blind... Why??? I can't let go!!! Why?!

DiVe AgAiN...

2004-12-06T11:43:00.000-08:00

SO stupid! My stupid sister (I dun wanna admit, but she is my sister... And which one you ask, yep, the one who is younger than me by 4 years old... I always have a problem with her anyways... She is a super duper trouble-maker!!!!) is bullying my cousin who is younger than me by 5 years old... What's wrong with me helping my cousin?! But, me, being NOT a morning person, smacked my sister on her leg... She (Being a crybaby... That's why I hate her....) cried loudly... My mum came out, ranting at me, EVEN after I told her! She is SO unfair!!! Stupid mum and crybaby... I will have my revenge... Haha.... My mum's ranting at that stupid crybaby now... Yay! But my mum still beat me on the head! That I will NOT tolerate... I will have my will... Dunno if everyone (who should) read the post read it already or not... Nvm... If they dun wanna read, I can't do anything.... Bleh... Hehe... Should I put some bugs in that crybaby's bed??? Just kidding! Maybe I'll spite her with my words... Muah ha ha.... :p

NoT tOrMeNtEd dAiLy...

2004-12-05T13:46:00.000-08:00

Chatted with Angelina online on MSN... Feel better after talking to her... Finally, the emails stopped... Great effect my post have... I'm gonna stay at home for a loooooooooooong time... Maybe for the rest of the holidays... Leaving my clique... No point staying without any trust... A totally different person... Alone and all alone... Saw Avril Lavigne's "Nobody's Home" music video... She was sorta leading a vagrant's live in the video... Nice kind of life... But she dyed her hair as a brunette in the video... She looks better in the past... (Or let's say usual...) And her hair is so messy in the video... (Any vagrant has nice, neat hair???) My cousin loves her hair how it usually looks... I was like freaked out by her hair styles in the music video... (Yes, not wrong... Hair STYLES) There were 2 hair styles... One vagrant and the other... Oldies... Hahaz... Fine... She doesn't look that nice in the video... Nope at all... Might go roller-blading... Yup! Got my roller-skates! I know what is blinding me... I knew it all along... The Twinxsmilex incident... I can't let go... And IT won't let go... This is what that went wrong and all the things went wrong... Fine... It was my fault... What could I do? I can't blame anyone else... But I was gonna let the matter fade off when people (yes, PEOPLE) hacked into that account and added all my emails accounts to the Twinxsmilex account... I was apparently going mad... I had to confess... (P.S: I'm not blaming those people... If I hadn't drove them crazy, they wouldn't hack into my account right?)The people with the biggest reactions, Jolene and Sabrina... Well... All my fault... Shouldn't even started the sabotage... I'm sorry okay??? EVERYONE... But why wouldn't you all forgive??? Haiz... This world never gives a second chance does it??? The whole point is, I'm SORRY...

GoT tO bReAk ThRoUgH...

2004-12-04T23:44:00.000-08:00

I'm still feeling so miserable... I get your attempt to tell me that you're there... I can't see you any longer... I can't tell anyone's presence ever again... Unless the thing holding me back goes away... It's holding me back... It's blinding me... I can see nothing except for blindness... Stop your attempts already... I know you're attempting to make your presence known... But I really find it very difficult to trust you again... After that incident that shall soon disperse our clique... I'm tired of this... I'm not staying... This shall see an end... You are one of the causes of my misery... I have my will to do... You all caused this... This is it... Give up...

MeSsEd Up...

2004-12-04T16:57:00.000-08:00

I am SO messed up!!! I can't think anymore! The Huang Na project is driving me crazy! Crapzzzzzzz............... I'm thinking about negative stuff again... I can't help it... How can I change if I continue to think negative??? Someone help me? My pillar of support has crashed... At least that's what it seems to me... No longer there for me... I can't reach the pillar already... It's beyond my reach... I am miserable... I'm letting go... I have low energy level already... I'm SO tired with this life I have... What can I do? I dunno myself any longer... I'm really miserable... I see nothing but darkness... It's as though I'm being blinded by something... And it won't go away... It just pesters me... Sticks to me... Will you just go away and leave me alone?! Let go of me!!!! I hate you! Can't you see that my blindness to everything has caused me to shatter inside? Can't you see that the surface is whole while the inside is shattered??? I need to have the sight to see the people who was there for me and who is gone!!! I believe that they're gone... Though those with me, I've been alone all along... I'm so tired... Give me a hand someone?

SuPpReSsEd By My OwN cHiLdIsH fEaRs...

2004-12-03T12:51:00.000-08:00

Back in Singapore FINALLY... Phew... How I miss my computer... My mum's scolding me like hell now cos' I've been using the computer since I reached home... And it's like hours since I reached home... Hahaz... Too bad... I've left my computer for like a week or so... I miss nothing but my computer... See how attached I am to my computer??? My cousin is watching MVP Valentine now... That show was like filmed ages ago... My cousin goes gaga over 5566... I prefer Energy... *OBVIOUS... DUH!!! Energy rawks more than 5566... So much better at dancing... OOOOOOOOO... My Maggi noodles!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay! I haven't realised that... Was so occupied with my computer... That means NOODLES for eating!!!! Yay!!!! The duck noodles I ate in Thailand was like so bloody (NOT a bad word!!!) and uncooked... The duck meat was apparently bleeding inside!!! Ewwwwwww... The soup had pig blood inside... I was totally freaked out and I didn't even eat in the end... Anyway, who would have the mood to eat when they're down with dengue fever and is missing out all the fun and good food??? I missed the Tom Yam soup... I love the Tom Yam soup in Thailand!!! But, too bad. Who asked me to be down with dengue fever then???? Haiz... Gtg... Sayounara!!!

GoT tO bReAtHe...

2004-12-01T19:00:00.000-08:00

At an internet cafe in Ipoh with my sisters and friends... Was down with dengue fever the past few days... Only better today... Still a little tired though... Saw a doctor in Thailand... He nearly wanted me hospitalised... I was like.... Haiz... Dunno what to say... Now, I'm with rashes... Sickening... What can I do.... I miss the computer SO much... Nearly died from all the pining... Hahaz.... Meleka trip's over... Wonder what happened... Maybe I should ask... :p Gtg...

ScReAmInG, dEcEiViNg AnD bLeEdInG fOr YoU...

2004-11-24T19:59:00.000-08:00

Haiz... I woke up only at 1p.m smth... SO tired... Today's the Meleka trip... Just sorta realised something... When I was going, the people were lyk not interested... When I withdrew, loads of people joined in... Maybe I'm sensitive.. But I have a strong feeling that the response was lousy cos' I was going then... Maybe I shouldn't go for anymore mission trips... People loathe me... I'm planning to quit CF... Since loads of people detests me... I dun wanna attend my CCA with the feeling of being hated... It's very hard on me... People may think..."Oh, she's thinking crap again..." But I tell you, I believe that this is reality... This may sound crappy but it's the fact is it not??? People see only me and my flaws... I think I only have flaws anywaiz... That is a very true fact... This is what the world thinks about me... I've always been the fool that was fooled by everyone... I think the song "Everyone's Fool" by Evanescence suits me perfectly... The lyrics are below... Just simply describes what I thought... But only to realise people treat me as a fool...

Everyone's Fool...

Perfect by nature, icons of self-indulgence.
Just what we all need.
More lies about a world

That never was and never will be.
Have you no shame, don’t you see me?
You know you’ve got everybody fooled.

Look here she comes now -
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you.
No flaws when you’re.
But now I know she -

Never was and never will be.
You don’t know how you betrayed me.
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled.

Without the mask,
where will you hide?
Can’t find yourself,
lost in your lies.

I know the truth now
I know who you are.
And I don’t love you anymore.

Never was and never will be.
You don’t know how you betrayed me.
And somehow you’ve got everybody fooled.

Never was and never will be.
Not for real that you can save me.
And somehow now you’re everybody’s fool...

gtg, I'm tired already... By the way, good luck to the people going to Meleka...

WhEn I tHoUgHt I rEaChEd ThE bOtToM...

2004-11-23T18:02:00.000-08:00

Yay! Back in Singapore... Missed the computer SO much... Will be going back to Malaysia tomorrow... -_- To take bus to Ipoh and Thailand... Hahaz... Yay! I luv shopping in Thailand... I like the hot springs in Ipoh... Hahaz... I'm SO excited... But I won't get to use the computer AGAIN... Haiz... Wanna get a laptop that I can bring everywhere... Then I can always update my blog... I simply dun wanna leave my computer... It's SO saddening... I saw my Bao Bei...(My dog for your information, in case some people misunderstand...) Lost a lot of fur... And a lot thinner...(Nearly cried when I saw my Bao Bei...) Must be the cause of old age... Haiz... I dunno what I'll do when Bao Bei passes away... Cos' dogs dun have spirits... I won't get to see my Bao Bei even after I die... :( I can't imagine that... I really luv my Bao Bei a lot... The best dog I ever knew... Bao Bei even got blind in one eye cos' it protected me and someone else from a cobra... Sniff... I really luv Bao Bei... If it dies, I'll miss the way Bao Bei greets me when I reach my aunt's house... (Cos' Bao Bei is brought up by my aunt...) You know, jump up and down and keep barking like a maniac... Hahaz... It gets SO excited... Bought some horror movies... I'm SO happy... Ouijia Board, The Shutter, Saw, Abnormal Beauty, The Forgotten and Princess Diaries 2....(This is an exception...) Yay!!! Hahaz... Sabby gave me her new blog's address... But I can't get in... Wonder why... Haiz... Gtg!!!!

WhAt I'vE dOnE fOr YoU...

2004-11-19T23:06:00.000-08:00

Haiz... Yawnz... :p I'm lyk so freakin tired... Freak out! I'm stuck at the computer!!! Of course, willingly... Who doesn't love using the computer???? Hahaz... I'm in SO a good mood today... Cos' I made my own blog of course!!! Hahaz... Who wouldn't be happy writing and posting their very first own made blog???? I'm SO happy!!! I am SO tired.... Tomorrow will be going to Malaysia... Will meet someone I hate!!! Haiz... Pathetic... May he NOT come... Crapzzzz... Hate that guy.... He is so proud... I will throw up at the very sight of him... How crap will he get lorzzzzz.... Gtg... I'm SO tired...

FaLLiNg FoReVeR...

2004-11-19T18:10:00.000-08:00

I'm NOT going to Malaysia today!!!! Yay!!! Cheers... Quizilla lousy lah... Keep having what bad proxy... Haiz... Pathetic site... My mum too lazy to go back to Malaysia... So she say tomorrow then go... Hahaz... That means more time on internet!!! Yay!!!! Hurray! Cheers mate!!! Lol... Hahaz... Simply love this blog too much... I love all my blogs too much to delete any of them... So might as well just keep all of them... Hahaz... Believe my cousin is as happy as I am now... Bleh... I'm now on internet, eating noodles... Hahaz... I'm so happy.... My stupid sister cried today... Cos' her last day of school... I was lyk... How dumb can she get??? Now talking on the phone with her friend... Sound rather agitated... Cool... Gotta find out laterz... Hahaz... Wah... She say smth about sueing her principal... O_O Asking her friend to write a letter to go to 6Devotion... Hahaz... Bad girl... Scolding principal cos' the principal seperated her whole clique to different classes... Now scold until like what... Heck lah... Hahaz... Laterz!!!

GoInG uNdEr...

2004-11-19T11:44:00.000-08:00

I woke up too early this morning... 6.53 a.m... That's way too early... I'm so dead beat now... Been on internet since... 3 blogs!!! Believe it??? I can't believe myself!!! Maybe I should delete one soon... Hahaz... 3 is far too much... Gonna visit Quizilla laterz.... Had lunch already... Though it's not noon... I'm lyk so full... Think I shall skip lunch... Cos'nasi lemak for breakfast is too much right??? So far only Aswani knows about this blog... Gonna ask people to visit this blog... Better get a chatterbox soon... Love this song a lot... Kimberley's blog is better... Background music is My Immortal... Love her background music...

50 000 tEaRs I'vE cRiEd...

2004-11-19T11:29:00.000-08:00

Another new blog... Luv the background music... Third blog.... I really luv it.... Hahaz... Background music is Evanescence's Going Under... Will edit more... Gtg...